With Blood On This Rose

HI lay in my bed eyes unforgivably wide open
Thoughts mock me in my mind
As I gasp for air as a swift toss to my side
"...what has this come to be, that I would fall so hard?"
Thinking of a trial of fire that awaits me
Can I stand and fight for my life again
Still healing from the past
Breaking from what is to come.

I lay counting the shadows on the wall
Thoughts of decay circle my head
"...is this really to be my fait, fighting alone for what is mine..."
I will not let this be my downfall
I am the fighter legends speak of
This turn of a page will not be my last
But the new chapter that is foreseen.

I lay with tears of lost love in my eyes
Memories of a time so long ago pass before me
"...those were happier days when I lived free."
Can I return to where I belong
Can I see the beauty of the heavens sky
Unbalanced in my life for so long
Now blind to the calling of home.

I rise to breathing harden with fury
Gasping from dreams mixed from uncertainties
"...they will not take this from me...even if I fall...again."
I clinch my chest with a fist of faith
The pain of my  soulwound  clouds my life 
It bleeds on fates rose as a symbol of truth
"...With blood on this rose I will find my own victory..."

even if it kills me...